Fear

          I was able to relax for the first time since I have been in Hong Kong yesterday. I was able to relax, go on a bike ride, and watch some Office episodes, it was honestly so needed. The past several weeks have been filled with more uncomfortable situations than I can count. From being much taller than most, smashed in with others on the train with absolutely no personal space, to just pointing at something on a menu to order, the number of uncomfortable situations has easily outnumbered the comfortable. But that is nothing compared to what has made me the most uncomfortable.

            I have to be completely vulnerable right now... I hate/fear snakes... probably more than I rationally should, but for whatever reason I can’t stand them and they freak me out. That being said, every night when I take the bus it’s about a five-minute walk from the stop to the house. Before the bus has even stopped I being to think about the walk; a long driveway in what is basically the jungle, possible snakes hiding behind every corner. Ironically enough I have learned a lot from this short walk. The walk gets me thinking about a lot about fear as I am forced to face one of my own. And I have begun to think about where fear comes from. I think it often boils down to my lack of understanding that Jesus loves me. It’s funny how the Lord has used a quick walk to remind me that I have nothing to fear and that even though fear might not go away, I can push through and do what needs to be done regardless.